pain

darkness is my place where i find no pain, no hurt, sadness and alone. light is pain, hurt sadness and alone in the masses. i live my life in the dark. i'm alone but strong  i can fight. but in the light i'm weak, alone and defenseless. i need hope. someone who can see me not as the hard sad alone person that people see when i walk in the light. i need help, i need love. but there is no one for a girl who lives in the dark. just dust, cold hard ash that fills the air in a thick smug. making my lungs chock and hurt with a lack of air. pain running through me like wild fire. tears running down like a rushing river. the cold air surrounding me never allowing me to feel the warmth of the people around me. help warm me up. make me smile and forget that I'm alone, in pain, afraid of my own shadow. I'm of my own death